Humans are capable of showing one face to the world and another in private. Social media has greatly enhanced that ability, further blurring the lines between what we perceive and what is real to the point that the truth is not always known. The result is that something that was meant to bring us together has helped to move us further apart, adding greatly to people's anxiety and depression as they compare their lives unfavorably to the highly edited and retouched lives that they see online. In the last seven years I have fought an incurable cancer, gotten a divorce and lost my mother. On the surface, I have started a new life; a new house, a new job, success teaching art both in my home and at the local art center, but underneath is the tangled web of emotions that comes with living that life and moving through grief. This is true for all of us. We are all fighting battles and demons that no one knows about. We are all ducks; serene on the surface and paddling like crazy underneath just to stay afloat. These most recent landscapes depict that phenomena. They are heart-led abstracts that express all the emotions that come with great sorrow, anxiety and stress. Anyone who has been through it knows that it is not a linear path. The five stages of grief do not necessarily come in order, do not simply vanish once experienced, and are strangely and thankfully peppered with moments of great joy and laughter.